Two movies from 730pm till 1200am.

  Saturday is my favourite day because I can watch mvie in cinema...I love to watch movie because it will make me to forget the hectic weekdays that I have been through....By watching movie, I can relax myself and at the same time, spend some quality time with the person I trusted the most....However, this saturday I managed to watch two emotional movies which are related to fatherhood....I love my dad because he is my Hero..I know he loves me so much and he is willing to give up anything for me...Love you dad....Honestly, I was emotional when I was watching these two movies in cinema....Thanks you so much for accompanying me to watch movies most of the saturdays......You are the best!!!

( Reel Steel 10pm till 12am)

                                                               (730pm till 9pm)

A Suprise Gift part 2

   When I first met them in the meeting room, I warned myself not to get close with them.I must show my professionalism by keep distance from them. They are just students from Taiwan who came here to offer their help. But, one month is long enough for strangers to become brothers and sisters..WalaoA...my worst nightmare is to be attached with them....Haiz...since GOD send them to comfort me...well I have to accept the fact that they have been part of my life.

The reason why I am writing this post is because I want them to know that how much I love them...


Well the first intruder in my life is Daniel Ma.... ( My Butter/Mentee)
   

    Assistant Principal wanted him to be my mentee because she told me that we share lot of similarities. Well, .My first impression towards him ..He is a person with attitude but XXXX...wahahaha....I didnt want to care much about him as I mentioned earlier... I wanted to keep distance from him....However, when God started to interfere......it is impossible for me to keep distance him..We started to know each other well when I brought to Portuegese village to taste our local seafood...well, as Malaysian, we have the courtesy to treat our friends and I did give him a letter before he returned back to Taiwan...but his second return to Malaysia touched me ....I still can remember vividly on the last day before he went back to Taiwan....He was trying his best to make everyone happy and I was touched by his words..Butter I will never forget what you told me in the airport and Thanks for everything...You will always be in my heart.....

My "Devils"

  This week will be the last week for me to teach in classroom since my "devils"will sit for exam next week.. During their exam, I will be in Seremban and will not be  able to see them until 1st November 2011....Never in their life they are so attentive during the lesson when they know that they will not have form teacher till November.. I told them today so they are worried for me but they also know that if they do well in UEC it will be my best medicine..hahahaaha I never think that I can use my sickness as "sword" to force them study well.....
    I have learnt not to give up. This is because the "devils"  taught me not give up although it was too late. They keep continue fighting which encourage me to be braver...Being their form teacher required me to be optimistic all the time....they have done so much for me so it is my time to pay back what I owed them..J3 Yi...you guys rock and I love you all so much...No matters what happens, we will always have each others...and hope to see all the boys wear long pants and girls wear skirts next year....I am proud of you all...another two weeks I have to face a new challenge and with all your wishes...I will go through this process happily...... everyone needs to be loved so show your loves to your beloved one immediately.....I will hug each of them tomorrow to wish them all the best...

Bone Marrow Biopsy 14/11/2011

 14/10/2011 ( 3am in the morning) I was awakened by mom and then only I realised there was a small pool of blood on my bed..my parents rushed me to the hospital.. My dad was speeding to the hospital while I enjoyed the scenary on the way to hospital. Well, Doctor was called immediately and I was examined ..I was discharged at 6 am and on my way backhome,  I started to vomit again then I was rushed to the hospital again..My mom called the school to tell them I would be on MC and I was in hospital till 12pm.. I was so worried that I might die today but luckily I am saved by ANGEL..but when doctor told me that I have to go through the second BONE MARROW BIOPSY...I was scared... Although it would be my second time to go through BONE MARROW BIOPSY , strangely I felt  extremely lonely this time..I was not as strong as the first time and I asked doctor to gave me an injection to numb the area before the procedure continued.. I am really getting weaker le...I must stay strong because nobody can help me and I have to continue this journey by myself...

White Blood Cells

   Well, after being sick for these few days..the number of  white cells in my body had dropped tremendously. Now, the total number of white blood cells in my body is 4000 and I have to go for Chemo on 28th or 29th of October 2011..I have been trying my best to make sure it reached 5000 so that I can go for Chemo...Doctor was so confused with my situation...Normally, Cancer patient will not have to measure their white blood cells for their first Chemo but mine is already very low before Chemo...I was so happy few days back when doctor told me that I was ready for Chemo and this happened...I felt like I have wasted my  mother's time and energy to prepare banana and soya beans meals for me everyday... I was so dissapointed...Just because of the fever, it destroyed my hard work within seconds.. Why I am so weak...I want to go for Chemo ...I want to challenge myself  and be Healthy again....

                         ( I like to call it night flower because normally I have to take it at night )

    Doctor wants to do BONE MARROW BIOPSY again...Honestly, it is a damn painful process ( it will be a lie to say that it is not painful) and doctor just told me that I have to go through it again...bec they are worried but...IT IS A DAMN PAINFUL PROCESS....more pills to take after this Fever...and everytime after the BONE MARROW BIOPSY...my back pain will get worse and I dont even can drive a car but I cannot trouble my dad anymore bec he is already in pain because of me so I want him to think I am still healthy and strong...although I know he acts along...he knows I am in pain....
 

(This picture was taken by my friends in Hospital and now I want to show it to the whole world)

My Life at the moment... would you want a life like this???and to those who keep on asking me to think positively...now you know why I am worried everyday........

                                                                          (In The End)
                                                           (I love the lyrics of this song)

Princesses

Rapunzel
   Well I have been waiting for disney to make a movie about rapunzel for so many years..After so many years of waiting, It came out in year 2010 and I love rapunzel so much and I have watched the movie in cinemas three times in two weeks...She has become my favourite disney princess but...I love Pocahontas too...can you see the similarity between both of them and why I love them?

 I love them because both of them are willing to take the risk that the world offered to them and they are brave although people around them despite them for being odd however the main reason why I like them both is that they have long flowing hair...^ ^ I love lady with long hair.
       Although it was a sad ending for Pocahontas but not in the story of Rapunzel...too bad her hair was cut short in the end. After watching these movies, it encourages me to be brave and miracle does happen when you believe. After much discussions with my family members and my brother, I have decided to go for Chemo and he asked me to listen to this song...I love this song so much and it is damn meaningful. As to Christopher, I love disney Princesses...so do you? Am I right?

 I see the light, have you seen it?

A bowl of noodle...

     Today I  nearly wasted a bowl of noodle bec I did not have the appetite to eat it... ( It happened last Friday when I had McD with Christopher in Fajar MCdonald. Christopher tried to stop me but I manged to manipulate him. I had coke, nuggets, fried chicken and ice-cream. Soon after the meal, I was vomiting the whole day and had a terrible back pain which I knew that it would be the consequence if I try to take these food.. and I face the music Friday and Saturday..) although I was very hungry but when I see it, I feel like vomiting and Luckily Chris and lee kiat were there to finish it up the bowl of noodle for me...If this is the feeling that I have to go through during chemo, I would rather give up eating...according to many books, those who went through chemo will continue to vomit and their passions toward food is 0%...those who like to ask me think positively ( Yeah, I can lose weight) and those who really know and care for me, you will know that I am suffering and I am in pain. I love cake, ice-cream, fried chicken,waffle, burger,coke, nuggets, desserts and fried noodle but now,  I can  only eat is vegetables, stew pork ( not every day) and fruits most of the time. What a wonderful Life I have now